New year resolutions

A conversation the other day reminded me of how I was; a sarcastic person, who is very capable of hurting someone, for very good reasons maybe but still, I was capable of making the irreversible damage. a couple of years, I've decided that it was not right, people screw up all the time, i do swell and who am I to judge; hence I decided to change that, be nice, get along with people and forgive their small offences, it works to a certain limit, but it's progressing.


Like always I want to drop my stomach fat, and hoping that I will succeed eating more.

I decided to beat my fears (2-3) and I managed one so far.

No regrets as well, no looking back, if I am smart enough, I'd learn my lessons and move on.

I am not that young, but I am still young, and I want to make the most of my life, so no time to waste as always, which is very relevant,  I used to run, get things done, do it all fast, I drop some details but I didn't care and today, maybe because I am getting older, I decided to take a sense of slowing down and enjoy the taste of every moment, let time drop as long as it's fulfilling. The thing is you need to learn how to make the moments that count last longer, making small memoirs, that tells you how much you have enjoyed the life you had, how capable you were of putting your gifts into use.

You can be joy with small classy gestures, you can be joy when you only remember your dead family and friends with a good smile…

Travelling and learning different languages,  embracing new cultures, connecting the dots, a near and dear hobby, that I started to pick beyond my love for natural physics and my belief they apply to all sorts of matter including me and you. Meeting people by coincidence, being friendly but also listening carefully; that way you easily acquire different tastes and experiences. It all helps to enlarge the spectrum of different sorts, colours and shapes you can absorb and reflect.

We don't need to wait for new year's eve to make new resolutions, the thing is you'll never really keep your promises after a 5 minutes thought, but it's a good chance to think, contemplate on where you were and where you really want to be in your life, it's not career oriented, it's just a decision on how to make your life meaningful.

Happy New Year!

Count your blessings

December 27, 2012 

It's the season for blessings no doubt, I can't forget how blessed I was during many past hard times, I felt abandoned at times, and felt out of this world at other times, the truth is that I might be a little out of this world but never abandoned. I've always known I am the one responsible for my own happiness, I've always tried to be so, and spread it to the people around. It felt like my ultimate job in the universe. I lost my way a little at some point...We all do get off track sometimes, don't we??

The more I look at my mom, and the more I get to know her, the more I realize how amazing she was and still is. She was daddy's eldest girl, married to a guy that was very kind but without many ambitions, part time dentist, but priority goes to fishing, I didn't know him but he seemed cool to me, seemed alive. And then he died and she had to go completely out of her comfort zone to raise us and ensure we are having a good life, and that we are able to get all the chances to learn and grow and be happy. That took a lot of courage, her choices, to be independent and go through the battles of everyday on her own.

In February 2012, I was encouraged to get a dog, at first I wanted a small one, but then I met Vodka and that was it, a warm furry golden retriever that kept growing and growing and growing, and now I can't have it without her, I know she will much a much shorter live than my liking, but I donno how long I am going to live either. I've always wanted a dog and Mom wouldn't let me, but once more she gets out of her comfort zone and accept Vodka, the big puppy we have at home now, and that made me so proud because she's the main care giver now.

Now I've a family and friends, whom I love and I know they love me regardless if whatever they do is enough at times or not, they are so different, they are so scattered that sometimes it feels they don't exist. But they are there, some helped me through, and had some disappointments as well, I were to some that to, both a help and a disappointment, who am I to judge?   This past week they've been all over, partying, going out together, bumping into each other by chance...And I enjoyed every bit of it, some I still deeply miss, some I can meet at some point and some left our world for good.

I've my work, it's not always going the way I'd like, it's exhausting most of the time, but rewarding all the same. I've a nice team, a team I am able to care and work for, regardless of what their capabilities are, I've always had that, a small team, to give me motivation, worst case those are the ones I'd work for, but I was also blessed to love what I do, even what I thought I'd hate, and hated actually. It's just a job at the end of the day, it's important, and I've to do my best, but some things have to come first. I learned that and won a few battles...Not to mention I met great people there as well, some of them are very near and dear :)

I live in Cairo for work which is not the most convenient thing at all, always looking for a better room, but I managed to meet a lot of people, some were awesome and some well, were a lesson...I am learning guitar there now, I hope to meet more people there, it's not so bad really!

Life is good, it gets worse and better altogether all the time. Just be happy, it's not that there is something to be happy about, it's a decision you need to make, it's the only thing that can get you off trouble. Be happy, the world is big out there, a lot to discover. Like a dog, wandering about in the woods, or a jungle monkey. I only have one more wish, I want a monkey or another dog :D

The country is not stable, I donno how it's going to be today or tomorrow, I am not afraid though, because I've never been and I'll never be on my own. Regardless it means that I need to be more cheerful, and happy, cause the world can't handle more stressed out people.

Note: " I only tagged few, cause this is how many am allowed to"

Taken by Shamshoun el gabbar!

Happy new year 2007

You can see me in the mirror...

Greetings!